the book i have to read for my math class surprised me in the best of ways and said

"Learn this lesson, that to be self-contented is to be vile and ignorant, and that to aspire is better than to be blindly and impotently happy. Now listen"

i was thinking today about all the times i learn;
about people, about the world, about myself, about how i slash others think about things, etc etc and i thought about the ways of how i learn them. listening to people, lectures, or stories. reading, or writing myself into a conclusion. observing, thinking, creating. and i thought about how all those ways listed are done in silence. and i usually have fun at parties but when everyone was shouting no one was listening to eachother and it was so loud, yet nothing was said, and nothing was learnt. and the things i remember most from that night are not any of the things shouted -meganfox-unspeakablethings-haaaaaha-youwont- . what i remember are the looks i saw when i everyone was watching the movie and i turned around and everyone's faces was duly aglow; half with purple-tinted flickering light from the shifting tv screen, half with the various shifts of consciousnesses and sparks of realizations, laughter, or confusion. i learnt from those. i learnt from the things that werent said, and from touches and hugs and crazed dancing. and i learned a lot, i cant quite say what it was because it was never said and im not adequate with words


if memory serves

im addicted to words

and theyre useless