Today when I drove by that house astrung with flickering christmas lights like pinpricks in the black-drop of falling night, i wondered if you knew that ive always wished i lived in your house. And I wanted to stand outside the window throw rocks at it and tell you. Youre living in my dream house.

You are living someones dream.

And then I had this weird epiphony, that no one makes it out of their lives alive.

And today was a spectacular day. Even though my grades are sliding down the drain, into that disguisting place mom always asks me to clean but i refuse when doing my chores. I think im going to have to restrain this pride. Or, according to the demon i mean guidance counselor who came into my chem class today, apparently ill never ever go to college.

Brother, see, we are one and the same

And you left with your head filled with flames

And you watched as your brains

Fell out through your teeth, push the pieces in place

One thing you dont realize is how much my mind is a mad scientist, and by this i mean that I take everything you say and slice it open with pristine, cleansed scalpels and pick it apart with tongs and boil it over those rusty bunsen burners that belch clawing smoke, and I choke on this smoke that I breathe and forget about it-- once I come back its all burnt to ashes and thats all i have left to observe for meaning

Make your smile sweet to see, don't you take this away

I'm still wanting my face on your cheek