to you who made me my Wintery Mix From One Emily to another Emily seedee i would just like to say that i thought it might make a me cry a bit, and want to curl warmly into sweaters and books and thoughts like sadish music usually does. but some strange chemical reaction occured between my HSO5 and CH4 and ClO- and 5H2Cl+ and everything else ive learned the past week thats inside me. and its made me okay with everything id previously held faulted in my life. truly, its okay. more than okay. not everything is spectacular and gleaming as that first moment you set eyes upon it. but after the flight and crash and burn or any extended period of static... the world is fine. you are fine. i am fine, this is balance. not indifferent balance, or limited scared balance anymore either. thank god.

and i want to thank you for being who you are because you are an enabler. and those types of people make differences in the world.

in fact that goes for both girlz who made me cds in the past week, the other being the most open thing i know i want to talk to you for hours, i want you to know that the things you do are great just becuase of the nature you do them in, the people you are with are great merely by your presence, you dont realize how greatgreatgreat you are. and how greatness is contagious.

i wish you guys werent yourselves sometimes... i mean so you could look at yourselves as someone else. and have yourself enabled by yourself. to feel the belief you instill in people, and be moved by it. and also- to you who does the announcements that never fail to remind me to laugh in my day. i wish you could step outside that tall body, and sit in a first period classroom chair instead for a day. and see how your day would be brightened.